Some thoughts in my head...

If you're reading this blog you probably know from previous entries that I'm a big fan of Celine, and that she's taking some time off to go through IVF again and try to have another baby.
Well, something about all this hit me today: just how HUGE it all is. No matter how long we plan for things in life, when they finally actually happen, they are somewhat different to experience that what we thought. More complex, maybe.
I studied IVF in Biology in high school. I've read articles, researched the topic, watched documentaries etc. But today it hit me that a 25% success rate is not just a number,it means 75% of potential babies never get a chance to live. It means disappointment for real, human families, that all the hope and effort resulted in nothing. I'm not trying to be negative here, I just mean that statistics are so factual and feelingless, but what they really mean is something else.
I know some religious groups or people are against IVF, but I'm really not. As long as it's done in a way that respects life, I think it's wonderful that it gives people a chance to be parents when nature wouldn't.

That kind of leads to my other topic- religion. It occurred to me recently that most my religious beliefs come from my Catholic upbringing- and most Catholic beliefs come from men. Not scripture. Not God. There are so many interpretations of the Bible anyway, though. How are we meant to know what to take literally and what as a metaphor? I know I believe in something out there, but maybe I can also accept that in this lifetime, we don't really know. Faith is wonderful, prayer is great. But until we're face to face with Jesus, how will we really know the meaning of all the political stuff in between? I guess my decision is to live the best life I can, in a Christian way where I feel I can. I still don't agree with everything it promotes, but I guess that's between each of us and God in the end. Not society. Maybe that's why I feel so uncomfortable in Church situations? Maybe there's a universal truth but each of us needs to adapt that in our way to our lives.