Happy New Years Eve...

It's 10.30am, my room is a mess, I'm tired, frustrated and it's New Years Eve! I'm going to Thea's tonight. Not making any resolutions really but my goal is to worry less and trust more...trust God, I guess, that I'm exactly where I'm meant to be at any given moment. We all know I am not good at that though, so it'll be more like a continuation of trial and error. I want to analyze less. It's in my nature to over-think, but what's the point? No human can reach all the answers. Let it go. Well, wishing everyone love and happiness in 2010!

Boxing Day.

Dad's family today. So tired. Falling asleep in my chair- at midday. Am meant to be downstairs. Don't want to be. As a child you long for the day you'll be free of rules. As an adult you're greeted with obligations. There are people you will never be close to. People who do things that you get past but it will never be the same. Just thinking. Rain making me tired too.

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas!! Here are some videos of Peter unwrapping his Christmas gift. At first he didn't seem to understand the concept at all. Eventually he got it, but started eating the paper...and finally...threw his gift at me. Anyway I found it quite cute and amusing!
Hope everyone is having a good day! We're all very tired here. Opi's not 100% well today. We had Christmas Lunch...did random things...a lot of dishes... etc.

Merry Christmas (Eve!)

Hello from in the midst of our German Christmas Celebration! My Aunt and Uncle are over, we had Christmas dinner, Opi's gone to sleep (wasn't feeling well) and we're gonna go swimming in the dark soon (with lights on), before Matt hopefully gets home in time for dessert! The pic is me with my inflatable penguin tonight. No shame, I am a dork and proud of it at Christmas!!! Wishing you all lots of love and happiness and a peaceful Christmas!!! oxoxo <3 <3

Stress...

Opi is sick. :( They had to call the Doctor to come give him morphine at 4am. Somehow I slept through this. I must have been very tired. Still am, actually. I have to clean, do chores, washing, and figure out plans for Christmas Eve, today. And pray that he's gonna get better from here and not end up in hospital over Christmas again. It got me thinking last night...I'm not sure if prayers work? I believe that God knows what we want, and what we need...but does repeatedly asking Him for it make any difference to the details of His plan? I'm not quite sure. I'm sick of analysing that stuff...no amount of doing so gives us any definite answers. But I'm thankful for all the good He gives us. :) And really hoping that all our family can be together at home this Christmas.
Oh and I have 5 days off for Christmas, starting today. Work was sooo busy the past couple of days, as you can imagine, being in a mall.

Church...

I went this morning. It's so pretty all decorated for Christmas, and with the stained glass windows! It's sad how Church is something we have to try to fit in to our holiday season when we have time...but yeah, since the rest of my family doesn't go, I'm not sure I'll be able to on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. So I went today. I was thinking how true it is, what the priest said. Mary had to have a lot of faith. Because God asked a lot of her. I kind of want to live that way, trusting his plan, but I find it very hard to relinquish control of any aspect of my life. I could be a professional worrier. :S But I'm trying! Humans make mistakes and there is no reset button on how we live our lives. I guess we have to stop waiting for the answer that will make it all suddenly feel ok, and just do the best we can. So we lit the last candle on our Advent Wreath this morning. I have once again forgotten how to spell the German name for it. But oh well. It's pretty. And peaceful.

Edit: I think I forgot to mention that settlement on the house we bought closed on Friday? Anyway, that means if you know me offline, I'll have a different address, as of sometime in January.

My internet is back!

Ok. Yay! Went Christmas shopping with Dad this morning, since Mum is still no more organized! Christmas is so busy! That is all for now lol.

Things rarely go to plan..

Ever noticed that? It drives me mad. I had plans for every weekend this December, and so far, all of them got cancelled for one reason or another. We were meant to go to Carols in the Domain tomorrow too, but now we're not. Don't worry, I have plenty to do! With Christmas coming up, I've been cleaning, washing and ironing non-stop, and settlement closes on the house we bought, today. Plus Opa's been sick and Mum and Dad have no time to do anything. I think I'm going out to dinner tonight which I forgot about, but I'm kinda not in the mood, since it's raining. Rain makes me want to curl up in a ball. And yesterday was SO hot. Oh and it was Celine and Rene's 15th Wedding Anniversary! And today is my little cousin's 18th Birthday...I can't believe that...I remember the day he was born!!! One week til Christmas!!! Better get stuff done, bye!

Still no computer...

The randomness from Saturday night until now....

I watched Little Miss Sunshine. Expected to hate it, but it was actually cute. Beauty pageants are so...wrong. Especially when they involve kids. Let them be children!

Went to work. Getting busier. Christmas in 9 days!

Read more of pregnancy book...kinda amazing, things like how one twin can be born naturally and then the other by C-section. So much stuff like that!

Went shopping again this morning. Attempt to overcome my fear/dislike of buying underwear, due to necessity LOL...

And just found out I got accepted into the course I applied for, so as of February I'm starting Animal Studies and planning to then do Veterinary Nursing! I'm kind of suprised I got in, since it's apparently kind of hard to get into...it's gonna be a big change going back to that. But I think maybe it's where I'm meant to be. Ok, so better go do stuff!

Computer....

I finally got Google toolbar to work again yesterday. I admit I was kind of lost without it. Turns out it was my antivirus suddenly randomly deciding to block it. How annoying! So all was good but then last night without warning, the router decided to die. I'm on Mum and Dad's computer for now, since they're out and I'm taking care of Opa today, but other than that, until we get a new one, I have no internet. Grrr.

Christmas Cooking.

I have today, tomorrow and the weekend off after working Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday this week. So I started planning Christmas menus a bit. 15 days to go!!!!! Strangely though, most the salad recipes I found contained....marshmallows? I like marshmallows, but in a salad? No. Not to mention most Christmas recipes include meat, raisins, and ginger which I also do not eat. I picked a couple to try in the end, though. And made Christmas cookies today! And painted a Merry Christmas sign. :) I feel unproductive, but I guess I got a fair bit done considering my plan for today was to rest and try not to be in pain from cramps. Hmm.
In other happiness- Celine is somewhat back! And she's as beautiful, cute, funny, amusing as ever. I love her!

The randomness that is life...

Life happens while you're making plans...quite true. We (well, my parents) signed contracts on a house yesterday! And we went to see what will be our new home (if all goes well with building inspections!) After months of talk and planning it all happened so suddenly, and so randomly. Where we end up literally depends on what the options are, and which of the options work out! Thankfully, this house is much nicer than the one we saw on Saturday. It even has a fish pond and vegetable garden!! It's a little further out, suburb-wise, in quite a new area...we even passed horses on the way!!! There are a lot of vets there. Lots of nature, a nice neighborhood etc. I want to paint some of the walls in my room bright red though, because blue does not go with my stuff! Trying not to plan too far ahead, but you know I'm not good at that!
Today I managed to drive myself to and from work without incident!! I had to try sometime and finally got up the nerve this morning...mainly because my heels still have blisters from the ridiculous stilettos I was wearing on Friday night, and I did not want to have to walk home..

Happy St. Nicholas Day!!

To all you Germans and Catholics and...just people!!
I got chocolate...Ruby and Peter got adorable chew toys. Missy got a decoration. Belle and Vallie got grit thingies to eat/destroy.
Hopefully Christmas cards will be sent out today.

Craziness...

Friday night: Our house is officially sold. We have to move out in January, so we have to find someplace to live. Went to work, and out to dinner with friends. This being last night.

Saturday: Today. Not the best day. Went to look at a house this morning with Mum, Dad, and Opa. As long as we're all together I don't really care where...but certain issues frustrate me. Certain people...when they're just rude. I'm too tired to say much more. Spent the day writing, taking care of Opa, and doing laundry. We were meant to go out somewhere else but ended up not having time.

Sunday: Tomorrow. St Nicholas Day. We were meant to be going to see Delta at the Opera House, but now she got sick and postponed to Christmas Eve, so we can't go :(

Today: Christmas Photos!

Another busy day! Here's just a couple of the pics I took with/of Ruby!

December is busy!

This is my Advent Calendar. Yummy. Mum gave it to me yesterday. Every year I give her marzipan and she gives me an Advent Calendar, because that's what my Grandmother used to do for us when she was alive. So now we carry it on as a tradition!
I did pretty much all my Christmas shopping and wrapping today! I like to do it early...the shops are busy enough now and it only gets worse from here!

Advent Begins!!

Yesterday we lit the first candle on the Adventskranz. We were meant to do it on Sunday but forgot. It's a German thing, like a Christmas wreath with 4 candles- next week we'll light 2, the week after, 3, and the final Sunday before Christmas will be all 4! Opa sang a bit, Mum read a poem, and I was yelling "hurry up and light it, I have to go to work!" So much for tradition LOL.
It was a busy day though, with work, and then Mum, Matt and I went to see The Time Traveler's Wife last night (so sad!) Now it's Tuesday morning and I must get ready for work!!