Update...

So much is going on everyday. This is the total opposite of what my life has been like in the past, and even more the opposite of what I pictured it would be like now! I'm so tired, but everything I'm doing is because it matters. Sometimes that's a good feeling, sometimes it's just overwhelming!
I never thought I'd overcome the obstacle of driving...I still live in fear of messing up, but now I'm actually capable now of driving almost an hour away to class and back, twice a week. It kind of amazes me that it was possible. And that we actually finally moved. And that I'm actually studying animals and Veterinary Nursing!
This was never my idea... I never considered a career like this because I was scared....of needles, of being responsible for animals lives, of making mistakes, not being able to handle it.
But last year, when Ruby got so sick, somewhere among a million desperate prayers, I told God that if he let her survive, I'd spend my life trying to help the animals he created, as much as I could. I realised I couldn't always make my decisions based on whether I was afraid, or not. And the thought of losing Ruby scared me more than anything anyway! Thankfully she pulled through, even though the odds were against her, and she's still with us today. :)
The course is a lot harder than I thought it would be- so many details that are all important to remember, because medical care for any creature isn't something you can do by half...and Biology was always one of my worst subjects at school! Today I managed to stab myself with a needle, and get stuck in a pair of surgical gloves...so I guess it will involve a loooott of trying again and again! I'm trying to take it one step at a time and just have faith that this is what I'm meant to be doing. I believe in that a lot, even if my thoughts on religion have been permanently compromised by what I went through last year. Maybe there's something simple amongst it all.
My lent promise- I decided to put all my silver coins in a box and give it to charity. That way someone can actually benefit from it. But then I decided to join some people in giving up all drinks except water- I guess to make us appreciate what we have. It's hard though. I miss coffee and juice!!
An observation on people- maybe stereotypes and groups always exist. But it's less obvious, and certainly less important than it was in high school. I've realised at some point, I don't care about ever being "cool" or "fitting in." I'd rather just be who I am. And the kind of people that were in the previous course I did, that just didn't work. The people in my class now seem much more...real...I guess. I like that.
Opi...he's so cute. Like a pet monkey...and I mean that in a loving way, you know. He presses all the buttons on the remote and wonders why it doesn't work. I ask him a question, and the answer he gives me has nothing to do with what I asked. His childlike-ness makes me smile every day, even if I seem frustrated.
Percy's much better, by the way. Belle's doing ok too. She bit me last night and pooped on me 3 times when I tried to cut her nails.
I saw Celine's movie 3 times in total. It was an amazing experience to see her up on that theatre screen. I'm running out of ways to tell you how much I love her!!!!
That might be all for now. <3