Trouble...

What else can we expect from life? Both my Grandpas have been in hospital these past few days, Grandad yesterday but he's home now, and Opi's still in there from this morning. :(
Last night I went to Church group for the first time in ages. Interesting conversations, even though I feel like I don't want to say anything about God anymore. I don't want to listen either. I don't want to question, I don't want answers. I'm sick of hearing about love and hope with strings. Here's salvation, but hey, terms and conditions apply. That stuff. Not that this is referring to the group, not at all, they're awesome people. I just mean religion in general here. :S It was like chasing my tail for so long. I'll never understand it and I just want to be over it now. What will be will be, nobody really has a clue. How do we truly know that what we believe is true and what our neighbor believes is false anyway? We don't. I don't agree with, or really believe the Bible at all, but still believe in God and Jesus. That's where I stand and whether people say I am or am not a Christian because of that, I don't care. I don't pray so much, because I learned the hard way that even a thousand prayers can go unanswered.
Song I'm listening to now: Broken Strings...
"Playing house with the ruins of us."
"Running back through the fire when there's nothing left to save.."
Those lines sum up a lot I think.

P.S. 8 years as a Celine fan today! :) <3