Love...

It's amazing how much can change in just a few weeks. The emptiness we all feel with Opi being gone, and the joy we feel from welcoming Frankie.. two such different emotions.
It got me thinking about last year. Before everything changed. Before we moved, before I went back to studying. Before I decided to just try to let go and trust that God would make everything ok. I felt like I was out of options then. But now, these days I don't even have much time to think! For a second today, I did. And it made me realise how many things we don't notice or realise when we get caught up in our fears and anger about the way things are. And the people we could've been there for a little more if we weren't so focused in our own bubbles. I don't want to go back to that, to missing out on stuff.
The morning of the day we found the stray dog, I had prayed that God would make it possible for me to rescue an animal. Something I had always wanted to do, something I felt had so much meaning, but was not possible for me. A few hours later, that dog was the first step towards the decision to adopt, despite our circumstances. He wasn't the right one for us, but Frankie is. The fact that we have him is proof that sometimes God answers. Maybe it's not always the answer we think it will be, or in the timing we have in mind. I still have questions about my faith, but I'm leaving them unanswered. I just want to love what I have right now.
Frankie is settling in well. He's already got a whole bunch of outfits, and made sad eyes at me tonight until I relented and cooked him some human food for dinner. He seems to like Ruby and Peter, and they're adjusting to him. Missy doesn't like him yet, but hopefully in time! The other 4 seem a little more indifferent.
Yesterday was Crystal and Jerry's engagement party. They're such a sweet couple. Last night I watched Valentine's Day with Mama. I have a huge pile of stuff to do on my desk, a ton of homework I don't understand, and I'm really tired and full of chaos, but I know I have all I need. :)