Happy Halloween!

I am at home on the forums. Not that I've ever been trick or treating, but sometimes I go to a party or something. I still can't really move my knee, despite having to call in sick for work yesterday and go to the physiotherapist twice- so that rules out just about everything I could do. Except...play with parts of costumes I found in my closet! So here's me, being a dork...
At first I was cousin it, then a Hawaiian girl (with my Mum), an angel/fairy, and then I was just wearing everything and playing with Missy (who does not like my costumes!) Ahhh what boredom leads to.






Edit- Just realised the photos all posted in the opposite order to what I thought. Oh well. Happy Halloween!

Sadness...Our Hope Endures.

Ok, so busy week. And that busy time of year is coming up! I'm stressed and running around like crazy...except I'm not, because my knee is messed up and I can't. I can't get down on the floor or get up off the floor, walk normally, or even really put my socks on. You don't realise how many times a day you bend your knees, until you can't! The Doctor said my kneecap is sliding around in a way that it's not supposed to, and it's swollen. So I have to go to a physiotherapist soon. Meanwhile I'm hobbling around and my boss is calling me "Grandma." And every time I take off the bandage I feel totally unstable and my leg feels weak and I have a panic attack. Great. Ok enough on that.

I've been thinking a lot this week, after hearing about what happened to Jennifer Hudson's family. It's just so SAD. I can't imagine losing my Mother, Brother, or a child, let alone all three at once and in such a horrible, injust way. I've read books and more books attempting to explain WHY God would let things like this happen to a good Christian family, but I just don't get it. Now all anyone can really do is pray for them. I'm not a huge fan but I watched her on Idol and in Dreamgirls and she seemed so sweet and talented. Nobody deserves this. I know similar tragedies happen every day, but when you know who the person is, who it happens to, it's like it becomes more than just another statistic. Not sure what else to say. So here's a song that helped me through a lot of hard times. I found it on YouTube so if I messed up some copyright thing or added it wrong, just let me know and I'll fix it. It's "Our Hope Endures", by Natalie Grant.

My Love: Ultimate Essential Collection.

Celine's new CD was released today in Australia, and will come out for the rest of the world in the next few days. :) It's kind of like a greatest hits thing, but it has some new stuff on there. I'm listening now. She's amazing. I love her. There are 2 versions by the way, a 2 disc and a 1 disc version.
Now, things I realised while out shopping:
1. If there are Christmas displays, I will have to look at them. All of them. Hence, shopping takes a very long time.
2. If there's a bunny in the pet store, I will want it. But I can't have any more pets. Seriously.
3. If you look at your Celine CD while walking, you may walk into a pole.
4. Doing groceries makes me a cranky pants.

Chocolate.

I love chocolate. Favourite food. Every day. All the time. :)
I don't know what my favourite kind is, though. I just know I don't like dark chocolate, and I haaaaate raisins/sultanas- they are evil! Everything else is fine.
And in cake. And ice cream.
Quite a pointless post, but I just finished reading a book about chocolate that Lauren gave me for my Birthday. About how it was made in Latin America, it was originally a drink, etc etc and how chocolate is made from cocoa which is made from beans therefore it is healthy LOL.
I think that may end my pointless blog entry.

My computer is a stupid b*tch.

It decided it did not want to recognise anything I stuck in the USB hole- which means I couldn't use wireless internet or anything.
So I took it to the computer fixing place and it decided to work again, but it was being unbearably slow, so the guy upgraded the hard drive and RAM and stuff and it's much faster now. Even though it took 10 days.
It did other weird crap though and had to be totally reformatted. He called it a "unicorn", whatever that means. As a result I have to reload all my programs and I have no sound so I have to take it back tomorrow and have that fixed.
And why is it that I've had 5 different anti-virus products, all of which have messed up my computer- and yet I've had no virus problems.
Why do computers have to be so hard to use? The average human can't understand this crap! And error reports; NO I don't want to send one. I'm sure you're not gonna fix it anyway. So don't ask me 1000 times!

Happy Birthday, Matt and Grandad!

So I don't know how we managed to have three Birthdays in my family on the Labour Day weekend, but we do. My "little" brother Matt turned 19 today and my Grandpa (the oldest dude I know!) is 87.
I gave Matt some games, a pelican pen, and some chocolate this morning, but then he had to go to work.
Mum, Dad and I went to Grandad's to have lunch with him and Aunty Jen. None of his other kids or Grandkids were able to come, unfortunately (or not??? if you know the full story there.) Anyway, it was unusually fun. The older I get, and the less Grandparents I have, the more I take the time to actually listen to their stories. It's a good thing to do. And unfortunately they won't be around forever. I don't know if I told you, I don't believe in regrets, but if I have one it's that I should've let my Omi teach me more German while she was alive. Anyway, Grandad was funny today, he got chocolate from his cake all over him and the tablecloth and Jen was all "ahhhh Dad!" about it. Probably trying not to go nuts now that she's living with him again. :) And he couldn't seem to understand why his podiatrist won't cut his fingernails haha. Jen didn't understand why I, as a vegetarian, won't eat fish. And 10 minutes later, asked if I eat tuna. :S
Anyway, came home, and I started feeling icky again. I've been sick on and off since Monday, it's really odd. I have to be so careful what I eat to not upset my tummy, and I have a cold that seems to come and go a million times.
But we had a dinner tonight for Matt, with pizza. Ellie's staying with us at the moment (but still sent my Birthday card in the mail! LOL) It was fine. Except, with Opa being in hospital again, and not so good tonight, it ended in Mum and Ellie crying, a lot. I wish I could do something, I feel so helpless. I truly don't understand the reason for suffering, even though I have faith. I've cried a few times throughout his illness, but it seems to come out when I'm alone. Not a conscious choice, it's just how it's happened for me this time. I don't know if I'm scared to cry in front of people. Maybe it's just that I have to be strong for Mum. I know that in the past year I'm less afraid to tell people I love them, which is a good thing. I'm a lot more open and alive I think, than this time last year when my mind was basically living in a place of hell. Thankfully I broke free from that but life is never totally without it's flaws and dramas. Well, this got kind of deep. I guess I'm not so happy about turning 22 tomorrow. I don't have all the answers that I feel people expect of me. But maybe nobody ever does. (Oh, and Uncle Michael got me an old lady Birthday card, greeeeattt...) I just hope somehow Opa will be ok. I don't know what I'm doing but the rest doesn't matter too much. As long as I have the people I love, it's ok.